I was suppose to be heading TOWARDS MY DEAF NATION....
and instead I was heading another direction.
I actually didnt head that way for my nation at all.
I was running from pain, and looking for family.Except... He still taught me something incredible while I was there.
Do you know when you are in a boat going the opposite direction of what God is calling you to do that you will meet and encounter waves of opposition?
I thought things were happening because I Was in the right place.
Jonah was the thing He even had me teach on in sign language just recently.
I didnt even realize God was talking to 'me'. I thought that illustration came just to teach.
Not realizing it was 'for me' to move towards my nation.
The link will be below.
http://youtu.be/QDnVAnOeH44
Honestly, I wanted to go to the deaf church I heard about in town.
Not because I wanted to be anywhere else, but because they are there.
And I want relationship with them.
How can you lead in a nation or even connect with the children God has had you praying andd carrying in your spiritual womb of what they will become for over 13 years and many years before now unless you pursue them?
I guess as a mom, I thought they would find me.
I never even stopped to 'think' I needed to find them.
But it is where I am headed.
I was pouting recently ( yes...pouting. lol!) about no other mothers joining me to help me nurture them.
Until I remembered Jesus words to His disciples when the crowds were following and hungry. He turned to them and said:
YOU GIVE THEM SOMETHING TO EAT.
I thought: but I am only 1 Lord.
There are soooooo many of them! What if its not enough? Not enough to go around?
(small thinking... I know. Thankfully, He had a plan all along.smiles)
I began to remember: the LITTLE BOYS LUNCH the disciples used to feed the THOUSANDS.
1 BAG LUNCH
FISH
LOAVES
God is very much into MULTIPLICATION of our little.
John 6:9 :
NET Bible
"Here is a boy who has five barley loaves and two fish, but what good are these for so many people?"
I am choosing to realize this season that it is my own fault that all of the wind and waves occured.
Being out of place, Jonah had to ask them to throw him over board,
Then....
only then, did the waves subside.
PEACE,
MY FAVORITE RELEASE!
Ahhhh.
I never even thought that I was suppose to go and pursue them for this nations breakthrough.
and Until I chose forgiveness.....
I couldnt even SEE that this was the reason.
What a difference a day makes when you are willing to do whatever it takes to hear and see Gods hand in your life.
His peace is more important to me than anything.
No peace, no good life.
I will say that these more than few months of chaos are an alignment issue.
Finding it out was the most important piece of information I could have ever gotten.
Lord, I am pursuing my people with Your heart.
I am risking much by running in the direction of the unknown, but just knowing You are there waiting to meet me is worth risking it all.
I will keep you updated on my journey.
Each mile marker of the way, because this work IS GETTING DONE.
I refuse to go home without completing my mission.
To see them HOME to HIS HEART.
Help me do this.
Even with my little.
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